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07/03/2009 That darn Lego magazine and precious pennies......About every 2-3 months we receive the Lego Club magazine addressed to Mitchell Whitaker, Mitchell had subscribed to it some time back. Every time I reach in and pull it out of the mail box my heart sinks down to my toes. I usually rub my fingers over his sweet name and thumb threw it to see what I think Mitchell might like and then it sits on the counter for a few days. I go back and forth with what to do with it...I have given it to one of his buddies before, but then I didn't know if maybe it made him have some of the same feelings I had about it. I will lay it on his desk in his room and eventually I will put it in the stack of the others in his closet. Why oh WHY is it so hard to throw it away?! Mitchell is not going to ever look at it and Meredith is not into Legos. We still have his big Rubbermaid container of Legos sitting on the floor in his closet and on a shelf in his closet sits in a baggie holding his last structure of Legos. I remember the night he worked so hard to complete it. It was the day after he had his lunges drained. He had been in so much pain prior to having this done that he was unable to do anything except lie in bed. His surgery was on a Monday and Tuesday was the first day in weeks that he felt good enough to sit up and someone had brought him a new Lego to build. He was so detemined to finish it. I could tell he was getting tired and told him he could finish it tomorrow, but he did not want to...finally he became too tired and weak to continue so we placed it in a bag for him to finish the next day. He didn't get to finish it the next day....I do not recall why, but by Thursday he was in ICU......and well most of you know the story from there....he didn't have anymore good days.
Maybe that is why I can't seem to throw that darn magazine away, it is a reminder of one of the lasts days Mitchell "played" and talked and was ok......
I have had kind of a yucky week ever since that magazine came. Friday we celebrated the life of John's Grandpa here on earth as we said our goodbyes to him, he is now with Jesus and Mitch. As we drove home from the funeral home I was thinking how I was jealous of Grandpa.....he is getting to see Mitch.....oh and Jesus(I am glad that the Lord knows I am just human.......in my human nature my first thoughts are of seeing Mitch when I get to heaven....I am just being honest).
Pennies from Heaven
I am not sure if i have shared the "penny" story or not, if I have please forgive me for repeating myself. After Mitchell passed away, his best friend's teacher told him that every time he saw a penny on the ground that was a "hello" from heaven. I shared this with Meredith and we have been collecting pennies ever since then. They show up at the craziest times, yet at the times we need them the most. Friday night we had a school function, Family Fun Night, it is still hard for John and I to attend things at times, especially things that we went to with Mitch or where we know his friends will be, but we know we need to do things for Meredith and this was one of those things. As the night ended and we were heading home I was feeling sad, John had shared with me earlier that he had a sad day as well, when we walked in the door I suddenly felt something in my left shoe. I had these shoes on all evening and had felt nothing all night until this moment, I took my shoe off and what do you think I found......it was a penny! We all just grinned...it was a perfect ending of a not so great week.
God continues to show us in many ways His mighty love for us and for that we are grateful. |
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