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19/09/2009 Make a wish......MauiTomorrow morning I will be running the Maui Half Marathon with Team in Training to honor Mitchell. I had an idea that this would be an emotional trip and an amazing place......and I have been proven correct on both accounts. This was the place that Mitchell wanted to take his Make A Wish trip.....but we never made it. 2 years ago today we were wheeling into the PICU at OU Medical Center......trying desperately to save a life that Christ had already called home. 2 years ago today....as I watched him fight, claw, battle, and suffer.....was the first time that I told him that it was "Ok.....to let go. If you see Christ.....if you see a Light.....just run to it. We will be just behind you.....and we are so proud of you, son." Time keeps moving on.....but the love of Christ remains the same. His good, pleasing and perfect will continues to play out in this life regardless of our circumstances. He has shown me much in the weeks leading up to this event.....and I don't know if I have ever felt closer to Him than I do right now. The Lord MOVED me this morning while listening to Matt Redmans new release "we shall not be shaken". Tears streamed down my face as I worked out.....as the words from this great artist became mine. Father.....I love you. Father.....thank you for this life you have given me. Father.....thank you for giving your Son for me. Father.....thank you giving your Son for my Son. Father.....thank you for giving me Mitchell....and allowing me to see YOUR love for me through my relationship with him. Father.....I praise you for working in my life.....feet made of clay....failures on display....but fighting to the end. I love you.....You are mighty to save, You alone are worthy, and Your love never fails. GoMitchGo.....keep fighting. 10/09/2009 A few thoughtsI have had a few people ask me why I haven't blogged lately.......I guess for a couple of reasons.
1) The Team Whitaker household is quite busy! Work, school, homework, dance, Team in Training, PTO, LLS etc. calls our names daily. John and I have also founded the Go Mitch Go Foundation in Mitch's honor and we are busy planning our 2nd Annual Go Mitch Go golf tournament(to be held Oct. 5th @ the Shawnee Country Club).
2) We are now almost 2 years out from Mitch's passing.......some days the pain is still as strong as if it just happened, but there has been healing. I can only speak for myself, but I think John would agree, we have less tearful days which I guess could be labled "good" days. So when it's been a "good" day it's hard to sit down and blog......blogging most always make me cry.
In 17 days it will be 2 years since Mitchell went to his heavenly home..........I cannot beleive it. Time has flown yet for us in a sense it is frozen. Last month Meredith turned 10...... she is growing like a weed. I told her one day before her birthday that I didn't think I would be able to let her turn 10. Her reply: "You let Mitchell." We are frozen at age 10 with Mitchell.........I have watched his buddies all grow, some of their voices are even changing.......we still have size 8/medium clothes and size 2 1/2 shoes hanging in the closet. Some day the time will come when we will have been without him longer than we had him with us.......that makes me sad.
We continue to have an amazing amount of support and we feel very blessed. The other day I was cleaning out a closet and came across a huge stack of cards, I have been collecting them since Mitchell passed away. These are cards sent just to me, I decided I would count them.......232(I received 2 they day I was counting). Do I ever feel loved! These women who sent them to me some are good friends others I do not even know, but each time their words have been just what I needed. I beleive they were being obedient to God as He gave them words to say or put the perfect card in their sight.
The card I received that day was no exception.......the words were just what I needed to hear. I want to share that with you.
The card read: "The most beautiful stones have been tossed by the wind and washed by the water and polished to brilliance by life's stongest storms."
She gave me a scripture reminding me that God wants to replace our ashes with beauty.......not put it on top of the ashes but replace them all together.
Isaiah 61:3 "To grant [consolation and joy]to those who mourn in Zion-to give them an ornament[a garland or diadem]of beauty INSTEAD of ashes, the oil of joy INSTEAD of mourning, the garment[expressive] of praise INSTEADof a heavy, burdened and failing spirit-that they may be called oaks of righteousness[lofty, strong, and magnificent, distinguished for uprightness, justice and right standing with God], the planting of the Lord, that He may be glorified".
Wow! I should be amazingly beautiful by the time I die!
 Praise the Lord for His love for us! We have had a couple of people send us this song just today. I am warning you, you will need a box of kleenex. This song was written by Steven Curtis Chapman who lost his 5 year old daughter in a car accident. I have heard a lot of songs since Mitch passed away, but this one not only spoke to my heart, it spoke the words of my heart.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z9JTwJ_1lzE
Much Love,
Tracy |
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